After 2 years, what’ve I become??


Ya Allah i haven’t blog for almost 2 years! SInce i join zubedy, obviously. Hehe.

I’m just checking some things here and bump into the stats that are quite frankly surprising ada jugak orang jenguk here for some info. I guess this is the amazing thing about blogging. You intent to share and it is inshaAllah beneficial to other people who’s searching for answer.

Whether the truth set you free or not tak guarantee la since you just sharing experiences kan.

But um…..i miss blogging. I miss writing about what i felt and my muse around. I miss the joy and excitement for the moment i tak sabar to type the word out and jadikan keepsake memory for myself and for others if applicable.

Well, life is good. Banyak gile actually nak share but mcm previous post (which is back in 2012! haha), i just want to summarize few points. Also nota untuk diri sendiri on my life progress.

  • I’m still single…but my heart is taken..Cewah mengada je statement. No lah, im still single.
  • I’m in the same company mcm last time i note, so its been 2 years now here kt zubedy. Many things change, many people i met, sooo many things i learnt, and so many experiences. Point ni boleh expand sampai 3-4 post if rajin..hehe.
  • I’m a happy soul (At least i want to believe that). I met so many people along this 2 years whom added value so much into my life perspectives.
  • I’m financially better than last 2 years. Alhamdulillah. Job promotion included.
  • I still lived in Flora Damansara on weekdays, Semenyih on weekends. My father sihat alhamdulillah.
  • I am busyier than ever since many projects and clients I have to handle and strategize. This is good for my development. Loving every bits of it. Penat yes but I always believe penghujungnya manis. Sabar and Stay the course.
  • Remember i said about somebody introduce someone to me? Now its a history. I’m happy for him for settling down and im more optimistic and excited about whats coming to me next. Kita keep on moving kan.
  • I think i gain weight if nak compare from last 2 years…Mane pernah turun, naik memang tak surprising at all.
  • I started working out n buat fitness activities and i played tennis for the first time and i tell you syok gila sebab peloh like crazy. I also ada personal trainer kat office, free wan.
  • Important people in my life yang dah settle down : Tetu with Farhana, Hidayah Gan with Hanan, Lia with Alos, Zulin dgn Pejai,
  • Did i ever mention that I joined Usrah Damansara. I love the people there, encouraging and positive people.
  • I love cooking nowww.. I think i can almost cook everything.. Haha. Maybe arwah mak’s perfect palllete terlekat to me. Eceh.
  • I experience being robbed, and got into accident.
  • Ah, finally just wanna share yours truly picture after 2 years like how kan changes..

Dec 2012 im like this.

Kenduri Nita Dec 2012

Now im turning into this

Just few weeks ago during Raya 2014

And my family

Selfieee….its a thing now (macam cakap dgn Huda 2012 pula)

During Tetu’s wedding July 2013

Until then, lets see when is my next updates.:p

Have a good life semua. Allah is always with us, Always sangka baik dgnNya.

NH, August 2014.


In summary….

Today is the last day of 2012. Just thought i’d summarize the major events, especially after June (since i was idle since June).

  • I started working at new place on the 11th of June. As much as im happy getting a new job, my heart still ache of my niece’s casualty. However, this place is great. Amazing boss and good value that align with myself. Alhamdulillah.
  • I moved from Semenyih to Damansara. I will be staying in D’sara 4 nights and Semenyih 3 nights in a week. I rent a room. It was something new for me ( having to pay rent ;p)
  • I have more pregnant friends than i ever had. And started to talk about pregnancy and baby stuff. Also my feeling towards babies grew fonder.
  • Somebody introduce ‘someone’ to me. I experienced ‘falling from cloud 9’ feeling.


2012 in review

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

4,329 films were submitted to the 2012 Cannes Film Festival. This blog had 26,000 views in 2012. If each view were a film, this blog would power 6 Film Festivals

Click here to see the complete report.

Maksu and Min


I have abandoned this blog for..almost 6 month? I guess its because one major events happened 3 days after my last post. But now i suddenly semangat nak blog sikit..Sikit je. 🙂

innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun…From Allah we came, to Him we shall return.

My dearest niece Yasmin binti Johan return to her Lord on 3rd of June 2012.

The Quran explains: “…When their term comes, neither can they delay nor can they advance it an hour (or a moment).” (16:61) In another verse, Allah warns us: “Wherever ye are, death will find you out, even if ye are in towers built up strong and high!…” (4:78)

She’s an amazing girl. The post-effect after her passage is what awe me the most. She has impacted thousands of people and helps us realize that later doesnt always come. If you try to google “Yasmin J Hunwick” theres a lot of bloggers wrote about her and pray for her. Some teen even made a FB page dedicated to her.

I have mixed feelings about the post-effect but inshaAllah as long as this benefited others, it is ok. As for me, i am ok now, alhamdulillah. I have so many things to story about her, from the day she was born to her last day on earth. I actually get to talked to her over the phone at around 5pm. (She passed away at 11.30 (approx) pm). I would consider it as a journal note for my own keepsake, all 17 years being her maksu.

I will do it by stages whenever im free. Now im pretty tight up with work.

before ending this post, i’d like to share this tagged photo from her FB in the year 2009. I am her maksu but she’s the only anak buah that called me SUSU. 




Allahummaghfirlaha warhamha wa ‘afiha wa’fuanha.” Semoga Allah mengampuninya, merahmatinya, memberikan keselamatan dan memaafkan kesalahannya. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Ya Allah redhailah Yasmin- maksu yg sntiasa sayang min.Allah lebih sayangkan min :’)



The Alchemist selected quotes…which is a lot.

Whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something,  it’s because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It’s your mission on earth.”

“If you start out by promising what you don’t even have yet, you’ll lose your desire to work toward getting it.”

When each day is the same as the next, it’s because people fail to recognize the  good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises.

“It’s called the principle of favorability. When you play cards the first time, you are almost sure to win. Beginner’s luck.”

‘The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world,  and never to forget the drops of oil on the spoon.’ ”

“You didn’t have to do any cleaning,” he said.
“The Koran requires me to feed a hungry person.”

People talk a lot about omens

“It’s called the principle of favorability, beginner’s luck.  Because life wants you to achieve your destiny,”- Old King in The Alchemist

“Maktub,” the merchant said, finally.
“What does that mean?”
“You would have to have been born an Arab to understand,” he answered. “But in your language it would be something like ‘It is written.’ ”

“I’m looking for a treasure,” said the boy, and he immediately regretted having said it. But the Englishman appeared not to attach any importance to it.
“In a way, so am I,” he said

The closer one gets to realizing his destiny, the more that destiny becomes his true reason for being

“There’s no such thing as coincidence

“We are afraid of losing what we have, whether it’s our life or our possessions and property. But this fear evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand.”

But that disaster taught me to understand the word of Allah: people need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want.

We make a lot of detours, but we’re always heading for the same destination.”

“In alchemy, it’s called the Soul of the World. When you want something with all your heart, that’s when you are closest to the Soul of the World. It’s always a positive force.”

Everyone has his or her own way of learning things,” he said to himself. “His way isn’t the same as mine, nor mine as his. But we’re both in search of our destinies, and I respect him for that.”

“Because I don’t live in either my past or my future. I’m interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you’ll be a happy man.

Yesterday, the camel’s groan signaled danger, and now a row of date palms could herald a miracle.

Maybe God created the desert so that man could appreciate the date trees, he thought.

Because people become fascinated with pictures and words, and wind up forgetting the Language of the World.

Given the best accommodations. That was the law of hospitality.

When you know that language, it’s easy to understand that someone in the world awaits you

“The day after we met,” Fatima said, “you told me that you loved me. Then, you taught me something of the universal language and the Soul of the World. Because of that, I have become a part of you.”

I fear nothing, because it was those omens that brought you to me. And I am a part of your dream, a part of your destiny, as you call it.

“That’s why I want you to continue toward your goal. If you have to wait until the war is over, then wait. But if you have to go before then, go on in pursuit of your dream. The dunes are changed by the wind, but the desert never changes. That’s the way it will be with our love for each other.

“Maktub,” she said. “If I am really a part of your dream, you’ll come back one day.”

I want my husband to wander as free as the wind that shapes the dunes. And, if I have to, I will accept the fact that he has become a part of  the clouds, and the animals and the water of the desert.”

“Tomorrow, sell your camel and buy a horse. Camels are traitorous: they walk thousands of paces and never seem to tire. Then suddenly, they kneel and die. But horses tire bit by bit. You always know how much you can ask of them, and when it is that they are about to die.”

Remember that wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure. You’ve got to find the treasure, so that everything you have learned along the way can make sense.

She already has her treasure: it’s you. Now she expects that you will find what it is you’re looking for.”

But many times you’ll walk the sands of the desert, thinking that maybe you could have left… that you could have trusted more in your love for Fatima. Because what kept you at the oasis was your own fear that you might never come back. At that point, the omens will tell you that your treasure is buried forever.

“You must understand that love never keeps a man from pursuing his destiny. If he abandons that pursuit, it’s because it wasn’t true love… the love that speaks the Language of the World.”

“I’m going with you,” the boy said. And he immediately felt peace in his heart.

I love you because…”
“Don’t say anything,” Fatima interrupted. “One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.”
So, I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.”

“If what one finds is made of pure matter, it will never spoil. And one can always come back. If what you had found was only a moment of light, like the explosion of a star, you would find nothing on your return.”

“My heart is a traitor,”

“My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer,” the boy told the alchemist one night as they looked up at
the moonless sky.
“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever
suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter
with God and with eternity.”

It said that all people who are happy have God within them

“We, people’s hearts, seldom say much about those treasures, because people no longer want to go in search of them. We speak of them only to children. Later, we simply let life proceed, in its own direction, toward its own fate. But, unfortunately, very few follow the path laid out for them—the path to their destinies, and to happiness. Most people see the world as a threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns out, indeed, to be a threatening place.

When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too.”

“But this payment goes well beyond my generosity,” the monk responded.
“Don’t say that again. Life might be listening, and give you less the next time.”

‘Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time.’ ”

“No matter what he does, every person on earth plays a central role in the history of the world. And normally he doesn’t know it.”

“Be aware of the place where you are brought to tears. That’s where I am, and that’s where your treasure is.”

“What good is money to you if you’re going to die? It’s not often that money can save someone’s life,”

Life really is generous to those who pursue their destiny

* I really like the end of it and the epilogue. His storytelling is very intriguing. I dont read much fiction but this is suitable for my liking. My friend Zu recommend me to read “The Zahir” and “Like the flowing river” and i googled some and people recommend to read “Veronica Decides to Die” and “The Witch of Portobello”, so inshaAllah tomorrow i nak cari kat book sales either Payless or Popular (this month banyak book sales)

* This book really focus on pursuing and run after your dream and what you call is destiny. There will be test along the way but its really important to stick to your goal.  Look for signs (as what they call it omens). And learn as much as you can in a way to achieve your goal. Find the blessings and stay positive.

* And as a woman, you really need to give space to men and let him pursue his dreams. Put in mind that you are not the world to him if you are not married yet. As the character Fatima, what she said, touches me (she’s the woman of the desert, so yeah….but its really a gem to learn)..She said

” I want my husband to wander as free as the wind that shapes the dunes. And, if I have to, I will accept the fact that he has become a part of  the clouds, and the animals and the water of the desert.”

So yes.  “Maktub, If I am really a part of your dream, you’ll come back one day.” ( I didnt mean that person who left me for someone else..)

Books, mother’s day and al-quran

Went to BookXcess yesterday to collect my membership card and wanting to buy “LiFE Wonders of The World” so bad sebab ada 30% off for members…Turns out dah sold out….im sooo arghhh, kecewa. So I look through Coelho’s title. They only got 3 title of him – Inspirations: Selections Literature Classic, A Warrior’s Life (his autobiography) and The Winner Stands Alone(his 2008 publication). I want to buy one, but wasn’t sure to buy which (reminded myself not to buy many, as I have loads of books at home waiting to be read).  A peek of one of each brings me to pick Inspirations : Selections of Literature Classic. Reasons why..I feels I have interest in literature but never pursuit any. When in secondary school, I have huge interest in English, thus literature in particular. Yeah some life decision we regret kan, I do tapi I know there’s a reason why.










And so I bought ‘Inspirations’, ‘Teddy Bear pop up’ book for my niece (sucker for kids book) and a book for my friend Ain by Wicked author. She’s a west-end musical fanatic. The only, among my circa. And also she’s an obsessed freak for fairy tales, which I find helpful because now I baru terhegeh-hegeh baca fairy tales. Well, honestly I don’t really read fairy tales and immersed. She did, she really did. When I find it hard to understand (or actually ‘believe’ a fairy tale), I ask her and she’ll clarify it.

Oh I pergi lagi bookxcess the other week and bought ‘Everything Selling Book’ for MYR14.30 sebab ada discount Mothers Day. Speaking of mothers day………theres a speculation going around by fellow ustaz and majlis fatwa even? (I am not sure weather Majlis Fatwa dah keluarkan statement haram or still in discussion)  that it is a haram celebration. I was kinda shocked. I just nak quote this from Imam Suhaibb Webb in his post

There is a legitimate scholarly difference surrounding this issue. Those who hold such celebrations as forbidden do so contending that such celebrations are “religious in nature” and amount to imitating the religious rites of others.

Those who contented that such celebrations are permissible, do so contending the opposite: such celebrations are not religious in nature and that the origin of things is permissible unless explicitly forbidden. Sheikh al-Qaradawi stated, concerning Mother’s Day, there is no way he considered it forbidden. He based his contention on the legal axiom: “Nothing is made forbidden except with a clear text.”

It is well known that al-Rajabiyah was a holiday observed by the Arabs before for the time of the Prophet [may Allah’s peace and blessing be upon him] up until the third century A.H. and the jurist differed on its ruling. The Hanabali’s considered it permissible, while the Malikis held it to be disliked.

As a convert to Islam and based on my humble legal training, I agree with the second opinion. Many of us, those of us who have converted to Islam, can use these moments to share the beauty of our faith with our families and loved ones in an non-hostile environment. Perhaps, by giving gifts to our parents we can heal wounds, build relationships and move forward. At the same time, such celebrations are based on the foundations of our faith: honoring one’s parents. Therefore, we should engage such holidays with the intention of fostering noble relations and spreading the beauty of our faith with others.

Allah knows best

Dr Mohd Asri also tweeted

“Antara kgnjilan fatwa dharamkn hari ibu, dhalalkn smbutn tahun baru..sdgkn kduanya asas yg sama, bahkn hari ibu lbih brfaedah.”

“Asas Islam; dlm daily life, apa saja yg Quran n hadis x haramkn maka halal. Dlm Islam yg haram sdikit dbandingkn yg halal.”

From hamka

“Apabila benda itu ada kebaikan, dan kebaikan itu tidak menjejaskan akidah, tak payah kita nak pening kepala berhujah itu ini begitu begini..

Setakat nak bagi hukum haram dengan alasan menyerupai orang kapir tak de hebatnya kawan..

Aku pun boleh bagi hukum haram jika nak jadi perasan bagus macam korang:

Contoh: kau tahu tak, menulis ni, dari kiri ke kanan, menyerupai orang  kapir, menyerupai tulisan dalam Bible, Sunnah Nabi menulis, kanan ke kiri, jadi korang semua ni haram main FB, main blog, sms dan semua apa ke jadah sebab menulis dari kiri ke kanan menyerupai orang kapir, haram! Jika nak main FB atau sms, kena guna tulisan jawi, baru halal “

I read about Malcolm X earlier. That name is well-known but I never knew exactly who he was. Sangat ignorant kan. And I love Wikipedia so much(well who doesn’t), it directed to so many related subject. It is a very sad story of a good muslim man. But how good you are, its not hereditary kan but his daughter Ilyasah are doing well. For me, as long as you have a good ethics, thats enough. *Iman tak dapat diwarisi, dari seorang ayah yang bertakwa*- Iman can never be pass down/heritable, even if the father is a righteous man. A Muslim who has iman commits to follow the commands of Allah in every aspect of life. Iman is key to success in the religious realm, but also in other areas. (from Suhaibb Webb)

This entry I quote quite a number from Imam Suhaib Webb. I like his way of giving preach, its mind blown to my liking. I came across to some comments of a people who dislike another person interpret the Quran as he wish. I mean…I think he got it wrong. If the person is true believer and has no intention to understand the Quran ‘only’ on his way, he’ll definitely will try to understand of the history of why the verse is being revealed first. People knows, come on.. Quran is an amazing book, no matter how much you read, you gain new things, everytime, and as what Imam Subaib Webb said, Quran verses is like telling us “ FILL YOUR PROBLEMS HERE”. (That reminds me of writing a post on his talk I attend regarding this). It does to me…and that’s how Quran give so much impact in ones life, apart from understanding the REAL meaning of the verses and its command. To me, to read Quran, theres a priority chain of command that is  (1) Understand the history of the revelation of the surah/verse (2) Practice the command (because not all verses are ‘story’ but mere command from Allah) (3) After knowing the importance of (1) and (2), if it suits your situation and you feel like Allah talking to you, I’d say..why not. If it brings you closer to Allah, why not.

I will give example for this. Below is a verse from Surah . I have few verses that I bookmark-ed because it really does touches me and fits my situation.

I used to amalkan this verse everytime after solat as ayat ruqyah, but now tak lagi…But it really does help me. Reading this alone dah buat I menangis sungguh-sungguh time kesusahan dulu

Ayat 81. Then when they had cast down, Musa (Moses) said: “What you have brought is sorcery, Allah will surely make it of no effect. Verily, Allah does not set right the work of Al-Mufsidun (the evil-doers, corrupts, etc.).

Ayat 82. “And Allah will establish and make apparent the truth by His Words, however much the Mujrimun (criminals, disbelievers, polytheists, sinners, etc.) may hate it.”

If you read the verse, its clearly about Nabi Musa and the pharaoh’s sorcerer. Nabi Musa is being challenged by the sorcerer, and it’s a doa Nabi Musa recite..Its also to reminder that sihr is unlawful and strictly forbidden in Islam. Ok so here we cover the (1)history, why this verse is revealed (2) Reminder from Allah/command, that is : Sihr is unlawful and Allah will make it no effect. Don’t practice and use sihr in any means!

Ok so now I had a situation, this verse is so related to me that I cried a lot as if Allah is hearing every misery I had (of course He does)

*This post has so many revision and having problems to upload it..So the ending i lupa nak close macamana hehe..

*Alhamdulillah i got a new job, i’ll be in a new place on the 11th of June 2012.. Thank You Allah.

This has changed my life